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+Document: WM-070 P. Webb
+Category: Life 2025.05.20
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+ Good Grief
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+Abstract
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+ Thanks, I hate it.
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+Body
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+ Grief is weird.
+
+ Getting the call a loved one has passed and attending the funeral are
+ obvious moments of grief and you can expect tears and shock to come
+ from that. What I was not prepared for (who is?) was random pangs of
+ grief that occur when you're just trying to live your life.
+
+ My wife is a student at a fashion college and recently participated
+ in their fashion show…as did I, as her model[1]! We're both fans of
+ "Fashion Runway" ("Next in Fashion" is a decent show but doesn't
+ quite hit the same) and "Making the Cut" so we couldn't pass up the
+ chance to get involved. It was an exciting experience. Last weekend
+ we attended a fashion show at another college in the area, this time
+ as mere audience members. Another great experience!
+
+ My grandmother **loved** fashion and accessorizing. Fur coats and
+ gowns were her THING and she carried herself with the grace of
+ knowing that she was THE best dressed person in the room.
+
+ I'm helping relaunch a beauty company that had to shut down during
+ the pandemic (it's basically Uber for beauty). It only just occurred
+ to me last night that my grandmother would've been excited about what
+ I'm working on because guess what? For many years, she ran a
+ barbershop/beauty salon. As a kid, she made sure that my haircuts
+ were clean af ("Ooh my grandson so HANDsome").
+
+ I'm happy when I remember these moments but then I remember I can't
+ tell her about new moments. I can't share pictures and videos with
+ her. She would've loved to see me strut down the runway. She would've
+ loved to be involved in the marketing for this beauty company (she'd
+ probably insist, actually). I can't hear her words of excitement,
+ encouragement, motivation, nothing. And that's when the hurt and the
+ tears come.
+
+ I have a small vial of her ashes in a necklace and I wear it when I
+ feel that my outfit is sick (she was with me on that runway) so it's
+ a small consolation. I'll never experience her hugs[2] again and that
+ fucks me up. Her birthday is in 10 days so I gotta remember to have a
+ Klondike bar (her favorite).
+
+ I wish grief was like a papercut; feel the sting, cry if you need to,
+ apply a Band‑Aid over it, keep it moving. Forgettable.
+
+ I guess the point of grief is that you DO remember everything you
+ cherished about a person. It's been five months since she passed.
+ I'm so thankful we reconnected in a big way the year prior. At least
+ I don't have regrets?
+
+ Claretha Johnson enriched my life in ways I'm sure I don't even
+ see yet.
+
+ 🕸️
+
+ P.S. Apologies for the Instagram links, haven't setup a self‑hosted
+ photo solution yet.
+
+References
+
+ [1] <https://www.instagram.com/netopwibby/p/DIxPYw1zGlX/>
+ [2] <https://www.instagram.com/netopwibby/p/DD0YMOhygFS/>